Some of you are lucky. You have one mom. Although life has been hard at times, I am even luckier. I have two. After reading my sister's blogs, I realize it's the time of year to recognize our mothers. I try to do this -- at least mentally -- more than once a year, but Hallmark made it official, so I better get on board.
Since I'm getting older (the doctor reminded me as he gave me the mail-in pouch for over 40 year olds for a colon test where in I'm supposed to swipe poop on a slide with a stick...isn't this the job for curious 3-year old boys??? Full circle, my friends, full circle!) -- I now have a better perspective of how my two mom's have and do influence my life.
Here's how:
My mom is always worrying. As daughters, we proudly carry on that tradition giving up sleep over pending pandemics, earthquakes, food shortages, chem trails and nuclear bombs. Oh no, wait, that's what
she worries about. I worry about rattlesnakes, high school and the inflating spare tire around my waistline. Still, I worry. And for all the right reasons...
My mom is a busy body. She's always cooking, gardening, folding, mending, cleaning, writing, teaching, helping, serving, learning. I'm a busy body, too. I'm always driving in the car, volunteering for something (while my husband is rolling his eyes and shaking his head), teaching, watching, dining out, buying new cleats, planning, gardening, mowing, pulling weeds, blogging, organizing, mopping. Really, I don't have ADD. I'm just hard working and devoted just like my mother.
My mom is ever a mother. I think I will be, too. She has no idea I'm in my 40's, married 15 years, with 3 children...she still sometimes sends birthday cards with my maiden name on it. She KNOWS I need her help. She's ever telling us, lovingly, how to be a better mother even though she doesn't know it! We know it comes from a pure place (a Reliv conference or a Preparedness seminar) -- it's just unstoppable. She can't help herself. She wants the best for her children. She always puts us first. I try to do the same. I love my children with an intensity. I am starting to get it, Mom. We don't take it personally, like she's telling us we're doing it wrong cuz that isn't it. She's just loving us the best way she knows how. (Don't worry Mom, I've got my sunscreen on, a hat, and I have some Energize in my water bottle for this hot weather coming up). We love her even more for it. It brings a smile to my face every day.
For that matter, my mom is ALWAYS smiling. What a gift. What a treasure. She has a song in her voice. Julie Andrews learned it from her. When my friends first meet her, that image stays with them and they mention it to me later. I don't have that gift. I have a smile, but it's not there all the time. I get some of the other stuff from my Dad -- who is wonderful, too -- just not always humming the "Life is wonderful" song. But what a lesson. She bares big burdens but rarely complains. Just worries. And tries to make things the best they can be. Tries to be proactive. I hope I learn more from you before I leave this earth, Mom! I hope to have a heart as big as you someday and find ways to quench my thirst for all there is to learn and enjoy. The longer I live, the more I realize how much I am my mother. And I realize my mom is one of my best friends. I'm sure I wouldn't have predicted
that when I was 15 years old!
Now there's Kay. She came into my life during a tumultuous time, not trying to be a mother, but more so as a friend. She knew where the line had been drawn in the sand. She knew I knew I already had a mother. (And really...what teenager
invites MORE parents into their world???) She taught me through example: independence, respect, thoughtfulness, friendship, support and unconditional love. When I met her, her boys were nearly grown -- in college and moving forward with their lives. She'd never had a daughter and I'm sure I was more than she bargained for. She showed me so much patience. She stepped back when she needed to, but never squashed my feelings or my ambitions. But she did call a spade a spade. She was a business woman and very hard working. Frankly, my Dad and Kay spoiled me in an "only child" kind of way. After all, I was the only child living with them in that household when the other kids weren't visiting. I have fond "only child" memories with them -- driving to Half Moon Bay for breakfast and feeling the ocean air on my face. Driving to Redwood City for a taco off a truck. Dinner at Scott's Seafood. (It wasn't ALL about food)! Little things that felt big. But mostly support. She really showed me how to support my children without doing it for them. That is a gift, too. And while I don't see her now nearly often enough because she lives a few states away, every time I write a thank you card or teach my children to do so, I think of her. Because that's always what she did because that is what should be done.
So far be it for me to be the only sister
not to recognize mothers. My mothers! And far be it for me to not thank them for giving and loving and sharing with each other. They are both strong women...I hope to be counted as one of the group someday.
My life has been colored by my Mother's. And I'm grateful to display shades of their artistry in me.
Happy Mother's Day!